Saturday, 12 April 2014

The Waves at the Window


The Waves at the Window
A poor, bright boy; not athletic or gifted with size.
            He made the popular girls – and the bullies – laugh. Disapproving teachers believed he could do better.
            A job in a warehouse, seventy-six pounds a week; he never had so much money, but he was bored. They got him in the office when they heard that he consistently completed half of the following week’s orders every Friday afternoon.
            A team leader at twenty-one, a supervisor at twenty-three, and a salary exceeding twenty-thousand pounds – not bad at all.
            Anna, the girl he loved in school. They married and she gave birth to his first child when they were twenty-five. A second was born on his twenty-sixth birthday.
            He bought a four-bedroomed house in the village but had to drive, every day, into the city for meetings, meetings, meetings.
            He skipped lunch but gained weight anyway.
            For years his children would wave at the window until the eldest turned ten and preferred the extra fifteen minutes in bed, the little one always emulated his big brother. Anna ceased to offer up that cold, hard pucker in the mornings, hiding her face behind toast and coffee.
            She had an affair: a younger man with a degree; a teacher.
            On the same day his mother died his eldest was arrested for possession of cannabis.         
Cancer made him impotent but his libido left him when his wife did. The smell of liquor was on him in the mornings. Nausea, like the frosted oscilloscopic patterns on the glass partitions in the office, where he spends too much time, churned and subsided inside him.
            The itchy sting of piss on his thighs. The full moon obscured by a great flaming rock. Anna’s face. The fire bursts before it and tears across the sky, deafening. It strikes the sea thirty miles out.

            Beneath the fist of a furious god, the far edges of the city collapse under the force as it roars closer to the tower he occupies alone. The invoice in his hand becomes a futile mess in his fist. The taste of glass. The sharp punch of death. The waves hit the window. 

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